“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”
love just happens and how can one be prepared or know that this is the person we are going to fall in love with. It isn't objective or practical or logical...And yes we do eventually, and life takes a different turn. Its wonderful, beautiful...just the thought of being in love. There isn't any expectation but we wait for the reciprocation, with equal passion that we feel for the person we are in love with. A lot many are lucky to have the love of their life with them, but for some there is a lot of turmoil . Some are trying their best to make things work and some just let go of the love, that's the only option left with them...
So how do we tell oneself or someone , to not feel or to let go. Its not easy to not feel the love for the person who isn't aware, who hasn't yet reciprocated, who doesn't care for your feelings. Knowing the fact , that it pointless to feel things. But yet we do feel it all the time...we cannot close our hearts to things that we do not want to feel...
So how does one decide, to not to feel the love, the pain, the hurt, the turmoil, the loss. I decided to let go a long time...I had no option but to let go...and I didn't have the courage to carry on when the other person didn't see a future together . It was one of the most painful decision, I had to take. That was the only option left, either to stay being friends or let go of the person whom I love beyond anything in this world. I chose the later, cause that made sense to me, how do I make myself feel ok, by being friends with the person I love and nothing more. But the feeling is fresh as It was when I met, more deeper that what it was even then. A feeling so beautiful, the love that I feel just hangs there in my heart.
When I rest my head on the pillow...the feelings, the moments come rushing back...and all I do is simply witness it as if am seeing a slide show going on in my head....and there is no stop button...its simply keeps on rewinding and I fall asleep. At times its painful. All I feel is the person in my heart.....the wonderful moments we had together, the dreams we shared together..the things that we planned to do together., ...its still there as it is. Though there is a sense of reality that of how things are right now. Nothing has changed, just that my life took a U turn.....No one to blame, No regrets, still an ache...which doesn't seem to go away.....feels as if am in a bottom-less abyss!
Some connections are just special to let go, but we do and that's the best way to move on!
When I rest my head on the pillow...the feelings, the moments come rushing back...and all I do is simply witness it as if am seeing a slide show going on in my head....and there is no stop button...its simply keeps on rewinding and I fall asleep. At times its painful. All I feel is the person in my heart.....the wonderful moments we had together, the dreams we shared together..the things that we planned to do together., ...its still there as it is. Though there is a sense of reality that of how things are right now. Nothing has changed, just that my life took a U turn.....No one to blame, No regrets, still an ache...which doesn't seem to go away.....feels as if am in a bottom-less abyss!
Some connections are just special to let go, but we do and that's the best way to move on!
2 comments:
God Felt like reading myself again!!!!!! beautiful!!! how true two side of the same coin..love can make u see heavens and also give u a hurt which takes ages to repair!!!
That's being in love!
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